Bummer Day....

Today was a total long, drawn out, stressful day and soooo glad that it is over.
We had a funeral to go to ( Rudy's cousin on mom's side). OMGosh it was very hard not to cry.
His cousin past away Tuesday, Feb. 10,2009 after a car accident. He was on his way to the gym after working a whole bunch of crazy hrs. and he fell asleep at the wheel and hit a truck, dont know if it was a semi, or a pick-up truck- still kinda unsure bout the details, nobody knows for sure.
His mom called to tell us tuesday night but missed her call. We found out wednesday and from then on, let me tell you..... preparing for a funeral is never the easiest thing to do. I dont even have the words to express my feelings even hrs after. I dont know how to explain the situation for all.
Rudy comes from a VERY LARGE FAMILY and so far it seems that the only time I ever meet a family member or we see the family happens to be at a funeral. It is a double slap- I LOVE LARGE FAMILIES-cuz I come from one but I hate everything that comes with it.
Dont get me wrong i love small families to but for some reason or another having a big family makes it i guess more fun in many ways.... birthdays, wedding, babies, graduations, etc you get the pic.
Well thats apart of life and there is nothing that we can do about. I was once told that in order for one to be born one has to leave..... So far that saying has lived up to its meaning. Everytime someone pasts another is born, so true . I have many high school friends that are expecting and a near and dear couz that i love, she is expecting a little girl in Aug.
In Rudy's family, counting both mom and dad side, since we have been together I have been to 5 funerals and 3 weddings. Man we need more happy times then sad. Cant wait to see what is in store for next month.........